I was talking to a friend yesterday who is opening a retreat center. She hopes to be able to help and support people who find themselves in the midst of major energy shifts, such as Kundalini Awakenings, as they deal with the fallout of awareness. She was talking to a Buddhist about her plans and he wasn’t very receptive to it, mostly because of her readiness to express emotions.
Now I know my friend very well and while she does have emotional moments, she’s generally not one to go blubbering in public in front of virtual strangers. But, one of her many “gifts” is to be a mirror for people and reflect back their issues to them. This man has an issue with emotion and so she was very emotional when she spoke to him. If you aren’t clear when you are around her, whatever is poking around under the surface will present itself, without fail.
My chat with her about her experience got me thinking about emotions though, and how they play out in this “process” of growing awareness. I realized that emotions are as much emanations of our beings as we are of the higher consciousness. That Love is the “first” emotion, and all other emotions radiate out of that one whole feeling. When we are in alignment, the emotions we feel radiate out of that Love and then dissolve back into it when we are through feeling whatever it is we just felt. That’s the whole calm of enlightenment.
I know that doesn’t sound like a very big revelation, but it is, it’s huge in fact, at least for me. The most difficult part of my own process has been trying to understand how emotions play into the higher levels of consciousness. I thought for a long time that detachment was a state of emotionlessness. A sort of sociopath who chats up God. I just didn’t get it. Brilliantly it was shown to me in every way you can imagine, and I just didn’t get it. I do now and it’s pretty amazing to consider.
In a lot of the meditative traditions emotions and attachment are presented as things we need to do away with in order to achieve true enlightenment. I always had a problem with that idea actually…that in order to know true enlightenment you have to act nothing like a person, not be all here in the world like everyone else. It doesn’t make sense to me that God would go through all the trouble of making everything and give people the ability to realize their true nature, but it’s on the condition you abandon everything meaningful to you in this form. It seems like a silly and meaningless process…leave oneness to be in form only to shun all things form so you can remember where it was you came from…and are going back to in just a few short years.
What I see now is that’s not the case at all. It’s not that you don’t feel any emotion, it’s that you feel all emotions through the divine expression of the Love you actually are. So your feelings are like individual states of being that radiate out from the whole of the Love that you are. It’s so simple and so elegant.
I can’t tell you with words how powerful Love is. It’s “the” power…it’s creation itself. As I write this I am in awe of the beauty and simplicity of the system we live in and through. Love is the answer. Love isn’t just infatuation or the feeling you have when you get married, although those are very tangible manifestations of it. Love is radiant and ever-present in every single one of us. It’s what we build civilizations with and homes, lives. It’s what we truly are.
When I was a kid I did a lot of automatic writing. It was one of my first modes of contact with my higher consciousness. I would be given a word like Emmanuel or Tetragrammaton and then have to go figure out what it meant. Sometimes it too years to figure out what something meant and some stuff I am still working on. After a many years of figuring stuff out I stopped getting a lot of messages and started getting just one “Love”. I so didn’t get it. I am looking at it now and can’t believe I didn’t see it.
Saying that Love can change the world is no understatement. We are Love…it’s what we are made of. When we recognize that, it frees that whole emotion/state of being to radiate out from within us, it transforms the people around us. It opens their hearts, it exposes them to who they truly are. I am looking at times when I have been that radiant, and the effect it had on others. Most people can’t conceive of that kind of feeling and their reaction to it can be very strong. Anger, sadness, giddiness, laughter, fear, joy.
I remember a time when I was “shiny” almost all the time and I was out to dinner with a friend. There was a couple with their baby there. The baby looked at me and began to giggle and laugh…and wave. The parents were all embarrassed, but it was adorable. I walked outside with my friend after we ate to take in the view and the baby began to cry…the parents brought the baby outside just to calm her down. It was charming…the Love I felt for that child and the Love I felt from that child was so tangible. Even then though, I didn’t get it. Heck I didn’t even realize I was that shiny.
Today I get it. I am so excited about it too. I have been looking for this piece of the puzzle for so long and it turns out I had it all along. So do you. You are that…you are Love. We are radiant, amazing beings who have the power to change the world just by seeing things as they actually are. As you read this it’s my intention that you being to feel the Love you have within you. That you become more aware, if only for a moment, of just how amazing you actually are.
